Saturday, June 26, 2004

I want this dress! I'm buying this first chance I get! And wear it to conventions! And it'll match my blogs ;)

Friday, June 25, 2004


Chapter Four: Since I was made to last forever, what is the one thing I should stop doing and the one thing I should start doing today?

I should stop ranting about how miserable I am and start taking steps to improve myself and be productive.

Now excuse me, I have deadlines to chase :)

Thursday, June 24, 2004


Chapter Three: What would my family and friends say is the driving force of my life? What do I want it to be?

Ummmm money? Nyahahahha! I set short term goals like earning enough money to buy a digicam. I plan to buy one this September :) It usually depends on what I am capable of at the moment. Like someday I want to earn enough money to open a separate time deposit account. And I draw to be a better artist. And I help people because they need it and they asked me to.

What do I want it to be? I just want to be happy, I guess. Achieve contentment. I don't really want to be as rich as Bill Gates, just able to afford to get all that I want.

Derrick is my best friend since college. He recently went to Shanghai and sent me pics and a cosplay book! I'm bringing the cosplay book to the Toycon and show it to Cathy and other cosplayers! It even has a vcd! Wheeeeee!

Haha! This one's funny!

Anime pose?

Puppies for sale!

Shanghai Starbucks

Go Pinoy!

Man, I'd love to pose my Gundams here

"Nabato na ako kahihintay sa 'yo a!"

Yay! He's wearing the shirt I gave him(as a gift)!

Shanghai nightlife

Monday, June 21, 2004


Chapter Two: Knowing that God uniquely created me, what areas of my personality, background, and physical appearance am I struggling to accept?

Personality: Being too forgiving. And too trusting. I really should give those bastards a good kick in the b@ll$ when I had the chance.

Background: I'm a Filipino. 'Nuff said ;) jk!

Physical apperance: 34"-26"-38" at 5'6"? I'm a freak! ;D

So what does this have to do with the book??

Saturday, June 19, 2004

How to make a Jac

1 part friendliness

5 parts brilliance

3 parts empathy
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Top it off with a sprinkle of wisdom and enjoy!

Thursday, June 17, 2004


Strangely enough, I received a free copy of the book The Purpose Driven Life right after my recent harrowing experiences. Our friend in church who was once a deaconess is giving away free copies of the book. I told my friend and former roommate Cathy about it because she's the first person I saw with a copy of this book. She said I might not like it. Perhaps it's because I determined to go through this book taking each and every page with a grain of salt. The rock salt kind. The book suggested to be read with a 40-day journal.

I wondered if I can keep the journal online by this blog. So here we go...

Chapter One: In spite of all the advertising around me, how can I remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?

I'd say mainly by holding on to the understanding that our relationship with God is like a child to its parent. i got this insight from my former Architecture classmate John John Ong, and i'll always be grateful for that because only then did everything make sense. Why we're created. Why He let all those things happen. It's because He wante to create something to love, and maybe be loved back. He will always hope for the best for each and every one of us like any parent would for their child. And the child, however successful and happy one seems to be, the joy is only multiplied when shared with the ones they love and loves them. And God is the One who we can always be sure who loves us. So it's much easier to find joy when we share our successes with the ones we love and love us. God is One of them. We can even thank Him for those successes ;)

Heheh, I hope I didn't overdo for a first timer ;D

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

My apologies to everyone because I know they all can't wait to hear all about my winning free tickets to Linkin Park's METEORA Concert Tour, but I've been fighting off real-life Dementors since last week.

"That's it! RUN! Run for your worthless so-called life, ya filthy dementor!"

by Jacky Cho Chang, Head Seeker of the PHP Ravenclaw Quidditch Team

Dementor 1- After rushing to finish the Ragnarok Loading Wallpaper since Friday(along with other Dementor projects with the same deadlines), I was asked to redraw it. So Dementor 1 had a field day filling my already stressed-out mind with thoughts like "I'm a hack! He's not satisfied with my work!" and "He probably won't pay you anymore!" But my Expecto Patronum (positive thought) for this is that my friend who commissioned this actually requested the redraw real sweet and kindly :) and we agreed that he'll pay when I put in the approved work.

Dementor 2- I ran through the stormy rain without any rain gear rushing to finish the 8 feet x 12 feet Sampaloc Lake Project Tarpaulin in 3 days only to be expected to accept only PhP 200(US $ 4). According to my calculations I could charge as high as PhP 7,000, but since he's a friend I gave him the price of PhP 1,000. He said he'll bring it up to the committee. Then later he said they're not satisfied with my work and will not use the design and therefore missed the deadline(BIG ouch!). My Expecto Patronum for this one is to apologize and revise the tarp to fit what they think is right and charge them P800, making this the most underpriced project I've had in my entire career. I still need lots of chocolates for this one though(mmmmm, Musketeers choco nougat bar!). I already fainted TWICE.

Dementor 3- I also ran through stormy rain for this one for a whole month gathering materials for research (yes, I'm officially sick with cough and colds and I think I'm still running a fever) for the Soundbooth Project. (My thanks to all the cool people who helped me with this project :) I thought I am to be paid at least PhP 5,000 for designing and making the technical drawings as well as the calculations. I took extra pains in the calculations to make the materials as low priced as possible(I could have just cheated and made overpriced estimates, but I really researched for the lowest prices for the most efficiant materials by going to the different shops on foot, under and through the storm). It's why Dementor 3 was practically celebrating when I'm told that the soundbooth won't be built for now and that my fee should be only 10% to 15% of the price of the materials which means they think I only have to be paid no more than PhP 2,700. Yes, Dementor 3 was laughing so hard its sides were hurting. I gave an Expecto Patronum of agreeing to PhP 3,750. But I've yet to receive a reply from the client.

So right now I'm sick in bed and cannot sleep because everytime I do, the Dementors move in again so I'm getting these nightmares. The kind that lets you open your eyes but cannot move, breathe nor call out while you hear strange voices, whispers and screams all around you. Mom tried to sleep beside me but soon had to leave San Pablo for my younger sister in Manila who had another cult attack just before my nightmares. I get these nightmares whenever she gets these attacks, so my family believes we have this psychic link. Skeptic that I am I just believe my stress put my guard down. She was riding a bus home when a strange lady approached and forced her to sign a contract. Like they always tried to when they held her prisoner in their temple in Malaysia and in her nightmares when she got back in the Philippines. And I still have more projects to do like the Comic Strips for this family magazine abroad(I guess it's like Smart Parenting, sigh, too bad Summit still doesn't contact me to make comics for their mags ;) and I need to do 4 animation concepts for this Makati company today. I'm hoping this Friday's meeting in Alabang would be fun though :)

Wow. Writing about all this DID make me feel better. Somewhat. I was reluctant to write about this but I felt like my soul's being eaten from the inside out the longer I carry this by myself. I never wanted to admit the negative side of my life, even to myself. So I thank you guys for listening anyway :)

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

Ahehehe! Another one for my wishlist. Hmm, maybe I'll make one of my characters Vivian wear these! wheeeee!